i am a bad judge of character, no not character... mood yeah that's it, how am i not supposed to know when THAT person is sad/mad/happy/glad, i know i asked and they answered "nothing im fine" but of course, me being the curious little kid i am, could not settle with that, i needed/wanted/craved to know and that is that

worse part is, im supposed to know! how can i not? how much time have i spent examining every detail of this person, in every way and aspect, if they were a skewl subject they'd hafta invent a brand new letter just for my grade in their understanding, and yet, even with all that, i still failed...

i cant believe it, its haunting, its the feeling a supposed typical troy student has when they get a B in a subject, its something that'll continue to bug me until i either raise it or rid of it

rid of it! ha! what  joke, as if i ever would, let alone could... yeah its pathetic i know so sue me with all u got, i dont care... i know this wont lead to some huge revelation where i learn the meanin of life or what not, but still, i... screwed up, yeah that's basically it, the basis of it all, all i hafta do now is admit it, which obviously ive already done... hmm me, being the english lackin person i am... the stuff up there probably didnt make sense to any on-lookers, but for once i dont care, kuz i realize this whole xanga thing, its for me and its what i do i guess

thanks whoever made xanga, for lettin me have a place to vent to

gtg as alwayz, ttulz

been a lil while since ive written

this weekend was my first official weekend of being grounded, once again, haha lets see what i did... friday i grew envious of my friends and xtina, who were able to go out and what not... something i couldnt do =( haha next comes saturday where although everyone was at celeb bball i was having a blast with no one other than....

JAY! man i love that guy, he bought me boba then we played ro for the whole night haha aside from the nice dinner that my rents cooked since he was here, what a nice family eh? man ro is fun, im gettin somewhat addicted

sunday i had a revelation that im a bad kid, not a bad person, just a kid with a lot of mistakes, and now im changing for the better, and i know that it'll be great in the end, hopefully before IT happens...

if u guys had a great thing... a really great thing... but u know that its going to end some day, would u keep it? or would u let it go... would it hurt more to lose it now or later?

tell me ur thoughts on that one, those of u who keep reading this thing hehe, but yeah im keepin it all right, keeping it til the very end, kuz im a hopeful person... im hopeful that itll last a long time, maybe even a lifetime? not to be sappy but u never knoe right?

monday was a very hot day... but after skewl i hung out with xtina! haha yay i love it wenever i hang out with her! man im sorry jay! (he was in fullerton and could have chilled with me) ill play ro with u later instead k? haha xtina is always so careful for me... its nice haha

whew i think i just successfully saved xtina, but who knoes, u never know til u find out! (obviously...) haha k gtg ttulz!

ditched school today with xtina! haha it was fun

couldnt find a movie early enough to watch so instead we went into a ticky tacky neighborhood then chilled at a park together

i make up and tell good stories huh xtina?

haha after that we went to a bookstore with this big sale but we ended up not getting anything... oh well haha after that we tried going to lee's sandwiches but ended up getting lost, once i finally figured out where i was, time was up and we had to go back to skewl

psst elections today... no body made a speech at first, so i raised my hand to go first, and man was i nervous or what, that was unsuspecting haha man i think some people even thought it was a joke that i was running... oh well no big im still going to see what happens, doesnt matter either way if i win or lose though, as long as someone cries

haha jk guys

after skewl and this stupid internship meeting i got a job at kumon! yay for jt! haha part time job of correcting papers and pissing off little kids... haha its great im sure... im not sure how much im going to get paid and im too scared to ask so that's that... haha

k gtg bye

btw xtina i didnt like ur comment from the last entry, it enraged me

man what a day since the last update

yesterday was mixed, it was one of the best and one of the worst days of my life

reasons why it was the best:

ditched a block of 6th to hang out with my FAVORITE person xtina haha we play fought at her house then went out to eat pho! man that stuff is good, but not as good as what im about to explain next:

imagine... a vanilla brownie... tasty huh? a mouth watering brownie, still warm from the oven... k now picture a scope of delicious FRENCH vanilla ice cream... mmMmmMmm hungry yet? k now put those two together, strange yet tasty combination, much better than that pazookie shiz... becuz to top it all off... add the best tasting, still warm, maple syrup on top... sprinkled with just a dash of walnuts... yes people, fresh from applebee's comes... dun dun dun! BLONDIE! (sp?) haha

that was the best thing i ever ate... it was, as many of u say, orgasmic... haha i dont like comparing it to an orgasm, wouldnt that mean sex is equal to food? not that im saying either is better hehe...

reasons why it was bad:

got a major bitchin by mother... told to go away, not to talk to her, wished for me to have never been born... i guess since im a oh so powerful teenager im supposed to disregard any comments made by elders and brush it off as if i could care less... but this is my mom, and when she says something she's very serious about it... it got me contemplating of running away, but last minute i was stopped by someone great... thanks for not lettin me make a huge mistake... but who knoes? maybe it would have been an adventure!

haha last thing on the agenda... psst politics! i wasnt plannin on running, but seein as two positions dont even have opposition, treasurer and secretary, i must make somewhat of a fight for those two positions... i dont like it when people win by default... its the worst, like asb last year... five people got in without much of a fight, like our current president howard park for instance... he turned out good, but he didnt win the fight for it

TIME TO PUT UP A FIGHT PEOPLE!

haha russell i think u are the only one that reads my xanga

anyways

today i had no homework, or didnt do any at least, and so i played a free mmorpg, haha then all my hard earned equipment disappeared so i didnt like that game nemore... haha k im very bored

i saw xtina's xanga... wow she does a good job with photoshop! im jealous... the picture thing on the right though makes me feel just a bit important if u know what i mean, and i know u do! u do u do u do!